A Letter To Myself
Dear Elena from 04/29/20,
I’m writing to you because I know you will listen to me and give me a piece of advice. And I know if you exist I am fine. Although I question it now because I feel dead tired. Moreover, I’m scared. My head aches a lot and I don’t really know what I should do with it. Maybe I should just let my hair down and have a blast… Sounds like a great idea.
In your letter you didn’t ask me anything because I have never received a letter from you. Anyway, I’d like to remind you in this letter about a marvelous time you had back in 2019 at this time. I don’t really want to tell you every story that happened to you. I’m sure you know all of them like the back of your hand. Besides, you cannot stomach listening to the same stories twice. That’s why I’d better remind you of only one — the most important.
Do you remember the story contest that you won? Yes, you do because on that day you swelled with pride at the fact that people appreciated your story. You could not help smiling, and a lot of new wrinkles showed up in the corners of your eyes because of it. I’m sure you will regret it when you become a wrinkled elderly lady but at that moment you were walking on air. And I know why. You are too insecure to believe that people can really like what you do, enjoy your ideas and so on. That victory gave you a boost to understand that you had been underrating yourself all that time. And how are you doing now in 2020?
And you remember the Phonetic contest for sure, don’t you? Please, tell me that you participated in the contest in the middle of April 2020. In April, 2019 you decided to stay away and see how it was done. You just needed to gain experience and, of course, work on your pronunciation. I hope you have managed to stop swallowing endings of words. You know, now I have a plan for the coming Spring Break to devote some time to work on my accent and its clarity.
Honestly, there’s one thing which is eating me right now. Over your first year of college you have become the worst friend because you have sacrificed your friendships for your studies. For sure, I have a lot of other friends and I strike up conversations with them now and then. Still it seems for me now that I have only one friend who is with me all the time, who patiently spends days waiting for my replies. Will it last long? Tell me, you know it.
I really don’t want to lose such a warm-hearted and responsive friend who is ready to give me his right arm. Don’t think that I’m arrogant but everyone needs someone to be around to listen to him or her. And I wonder what he looks like in your time. Frankly, I still cannot get used to seeing him as a well-groomed young man with a little swarthy complexion and sharp facial features. I guess in my heart he will always be a chubby boy with bushy eyebrows and a thin moustache above his plumb lips.
Well, that made me think of hanging out with my friends. We certainly should get together and have a ball. Anyway, I should not be carried away because still I need to do my English home assignments and prepare for Latin tests. A lot needs to be done during the break...
I’m sorry but I have to go now because it’s high time to prepare for my Midterm Grammar and Vocabulary test. It was nice to write to you because you are a “future Me”. Can I say something else? Although your life will be a strange mix of wonder and despair, please, don’t forget to keep your eyes on the prize. Promise? Pinky swear?
Warmly,
Elena from 04/29/19
